What is Chasing You?

A testimony of deliverance from anxiety, repentance, and learning to trust God instead of fear.

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In the deliverance process of overcoming my struggles with the spirit of anxiety, it felt like my past was chasing me.

My old self was trying to come back. Those feelings and familiar spirits associated with fear and anxiety had such a stronghold in my life for so long. They provided a false sense of control and comfort that I felt like I needed. My flesh did not want to let it go.

I would often start my day trying to find ways to avoid thinking about that chase. Even though my own flesh wanted it and was crying out for it, I couldn’t stand the thought of going back to the old me.

It literally felt like my past was chasing me.

The truth of the matter is that the enemy didn’t want to lose his longtime customer. The enemy saw what was happening in my deliverance process and became afraid that God would reveal and expose his plan and tactics. The enemy knew that once I was delivered, I was delivered. Once I’m free, I’m free.

"Therefore if the Son makes you free, you shall be free indeed".

John 8:36 NKJV

The spirit left my very being. So, all he could do was try to convince my flesh. So the “deliverance process” I refer to is my own struggles with my flesh. The enemy was speaking to my flesh, and if I were to be honest, I was listening.

As I continued to get into the Word, pray, and seek the Lord’s counsel, I gained trust and confidence.

“But blessed is the one who trusts in the Lord, whose confidence is in Him".

Jeremiah 17 NIV

God began to reveal to me that I had to let go of the feelings of control and comfort and let Him take full control. They had been idols in my life for so long; it was time to repent and let go. Once I did, I felt a shift. I felt like God was flipping the script. He told me that there was nothing attaching me to my past anymore. I needed to grow in my faith and trust in the Lord.

He is in control.

He is my comforter.

The Lord revealed all that the enemy was trying to convince me of. The Lord showed me that the enemy was using my own lack of faith to step in and speak lies. The Lord also convicted me and showed me I was listening to and accepting the lies (I was agreeing with them).

From that point on, I rejected the thoughts those familiar spirits were telling me.

I rejected the thought of my old self coming back.

I rejected the feeling of my past chasing me.

This all came about through repentance: I wanted to be obedient to heed what the Lord revealed to me.

The Lord showed me I wasn’t being chased by my past. He showed me

He is the one chasing me.

The scripture that I had loved and cherished so much in my devotional time with the Lord had now taken on a whole new meaning:

"Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life; and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever".

Psalms 23:6 NKJV

Now I start off my day knowing the Lord is the one chasing me. His Holy Spirit rests on me.

His goodness and mercy are following me.

When times are challenging, and it seems like a struggle, I can trust that I can’t outrun all the good the Lord is doing and His blessings.

As always friends, be well-fed.

John & Stephanie

The Butlers